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AYU
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Me then, now and forever
tough love. but i'll be here.
AYU
Monday, October 12, 2009
Me then, now and forever
I LOVE MY BOYFRIEND!!!!!!
AYU
Monday, October 05, 2009
Me then, now and forever
so wonderful, so beautiful this thing called love. i am truly blessed to get to walk on this journey with you. what we have now is so much greater,deeper than it ever was. i love u.
AYU
Saturday, October 03, 2009
Me then, now and forever
i love to love and be loved.
AYU
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
Me then, now and forever
am watching one of the hindi movies tt never fails to make me cry...such emotions from aamir khan in Mann. its an adaptation from an old movie, 'an affair to remember' apparently.Movie starts off depicting Aamir as a flat broke guy. In serious heavy debt. Quite a rascal, always gets his way wif women. Cocky, quite an asshole. Show-off. Did i mention i love the songs here? Both are engaged to get married to people they dont love. There's this part where he hurts her feelings and tries to make up by getting people to hold up signs...so she blasts him back by embarrassing him in another situation and getting kids to put up signs as well. Cute. haha.f inally found someone who matches up to him. They become friends after that. Maybe he realises a good thing when he sees one. hehe. as friends, she feels like he's callous, going around carousing and breaking hearts. and he... he gets intrigued when she reprimands him because she's not like the girls he's been with before. he actually shuts up and listens. provokes some thought in him. well, he is a womaniser so he gets distracted. and she gets irritated with his behaviour. she feels used while he goes gallivanting with another woman.this is when she realises she loves him. while wallowing in her sadness, she accidentally steps off a cliff and he comes to save her. silly i noe but itz bollywood right? :) he scolds her for being silly; for falling off and asks her what she was doing at the cliff and she admitted that she followed him and starts crying. then the silly idiot realises she probably likes him. stupid fella that he is. he spent the evening thinking about what happened earlier, he realises his gallivanting was wrong and he stops. she praises him for mending his ways. he admits that what she said had an impact on him. she thanks him for saving her life. she tells him he's good-looking :) They go to visit his grandmother, one he dearly loves. Grandma thinks she's his fiancee. She goes in to the temple at the house to pray, and he follows, although he hasnt prayed in one for years. He looks at her praying and gets amazed. She and grandma spend time together alone while he visits a friend. She rubs grandma's feet with oil :) such a sweetie. Grandma toks about how proud she is of him. Grandma tells her she is worried about him, that he doesnt stick to any one girl for long, as if he's always searching for something. She gets hurt. But Grandma tells her that when he does find true love, when he finds a girl who can tell him what is right he would change. (this is the part where my tap starts running). He comes back and sees Grandma and her getting along well together. She confides in him that intially she thought he was a heartless scoundrel, but that she was wrong. He said this, ' the lamp burns not by itself. it needs someone to light it'. i guess what he meant was that his true colours will reveal itself if he finds someone. grandma plays the piano, she sings. my favourite song in this movie. although i have no fucking idea what the hell she's singing, juz hearing it tugs at my heartstrings. cry, cry, cry every single time. he listens to her sing. and he sings too. Grandma notices they're falling for each other. he dances with grandma :) he calls grandma beautiful old girlfriend hehe. Grandma reminds her that the heart will never fail her, to listen to it and she will find happiness. she cant stop crying, felt so happy because there was so much love. she asks if he will invite her to his wedding, and to let her noe the date coz she myt get married on the same day too. awkward moment. he confronts her about the 'going over cliff edge' moment and asks her why she did it. he then tries to put on her the vermillion that Grandma said was meant for his future wife. (this part i cannot tahan. flooding) but she stops him and runs away crying (as usual) and burns his picture. he comes to her room but she tries to shut him out. he asks her for 2 mins to explain himself. he tells her he loves her and knows she feels the same way. she gets hysterical saying she cant love him. he says he's not worthy of her, nothing to offer except his love. he asks for 6 months to prove himself to her, that he can change his scandalous ways. he tells him to go away. he says he will, if she can tell him that she doesnt love him too. she couldnt do it (obviously).he tells her to meet him at the deck the next day if she wants to be with him. he realises she's the first woman he's loved more than his own life. decides to wait for her even if she says no. he stayed on the deck all thru the night till the next afternoon. she says yes wearing the dress he bought her and says she hates him (ya right). she told him she decided to say yes coz of what Grandma told her. (see, our elders always know best). he promised her he'll never betray her trust. She gave him 6 months to do what he promised her. She asks if he loves kids and he says he does (yay!!!!!!!!) imagine, 6 months without being with the one u love. i'd die. i barely survived 2 mths. the moment they get off the cruise his fiancee welcomes him promising to be wif him always and she painfully watches the scene. then her fiance comes. (arghhhh!)he publicly breaks up with his fiancee on tv (hurrrrrrrrraaaaaaay!) love isnt about money :) her fiance unknowingly congrats him. (gulp!)oh, she teaches kids music btw. meanwhile, he did odd jobs juz to get money to build her a house. (where can i find such a husband?) this part juz breaks my heart. how someone who has never worked in his life does all this, juz because he loves u...eating juz bread. how can u not want to take care of a man like that??? he paints canvasses of her, one he will never sell being the one he captured of her and his Grandma together. turns out her fiance was in love with someone else too. (was it a lie just to help her?) they set each other free. love always finds a way :) and this point the house is up and he's decorating it. she's so happy her problem's cleared up she starts dancing (i can identify with that hehe) start crying like mad. on the way to the gateway, her car gets a flat and she decides to walk. she gets KNOCKED DOWN. his watch stops. her legs needs to be amputated. he still waits for her at the gateway, she doesnt come (at the hospital wat..) he thinks she doesnt want to marry him. she awakes and tries to get up and go to him. and realises part of her legs are missing. she decides to hide from him to save him this misery. for the first time he experiences pain, that he lost her. Grandma passes away as well. Too much pain all at one time... the children's words touch my heart. as they always do :) she wants to buy the painting even tho its not for sale. he doesnt know itz her, but hearing she's an invalid now he told his agent to just give it to her. they later end up watching the same show at a theatre and both get affected by it, coz it's just like their story. he cries ( i cant stand it when my baby cries... makes me want to slap myself if i was the one causing it. never again k...happy tears are fine. u can cry at our wedding ) they meet each other when he's about to leave. her exfiance threatens to tell him that she didnt come coz of the accident. he doesnt know it but she will never get to wear the anklets Grandma gave her. its surprisingly touching when the kids argue about who's gonna take care of her.. he comes to her house. no more running away. she pretends to have the fever when the blanket's actually covering her amputated legs. he tries to hurt her saying he didnt go to the gateway as promised when in fact he waited the whole day..her heart breaks, obviously. he wanted to catch her lying that she waited for him. he scolds and scolds and scolds her, thinking she doesnt love him... if he only knew :) he accuses her of not loving him, that it was false love. assumption really kills doesnt it. she tells him to move on, not wanting to correct his perception..of course...she doesnt want him to lead a life with an invalid for a wife. she becomes hysterical when he tries to put on the anklet for her, for obvious reasons. he toks abt the painting he did. then suddenly it hits him that the buyer was her, that she's an invalid now, explaining everything in an instant. he realises he's hurt her so much, that he misjudged her. he realises there is true love after all....oh gawd...my stomach hurts so much from crying over their love. but every tear is worth it. right on cue itz just started to rain now. God understands my feelings at this moment. so anyway, he says he hates her for being selfish and wanting to suffer by herself and not share it with him ( is anyone willing to...? suffer with me?) he says to never leave him again...she says whatever happened, happened for the better... i agree. if u cant weather storms together, then dont love. wedding day...he carries her around the fire. how's that for love conquering everything?and you my love...our road is long and winding and no honey, it's not stable. we've already suffered some hard knocks, been bruised by some crazy bumps along the way.... but what matters is we found the way back to each other. come what may, i'm with u on this journey, always by your side. thank you for putting your faith in me.
AYU
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
Me then, now and forever
alhamdulil'lah. syukur things are improving now. not perfect, will never be, but i am a very happy woman now. thank u sayang.for our sake, i will try to be the best i can.i pray we never take each other for granted again. love is so undescribable.
AYU